Try to remember that your perception of your own worth is distorted when you are suicidal.
This is easiest if you have a cabinet or safe where you can lock everything up and turn over the key to your loved one.
If the urge for self-harm is acute, non-harmful sensations like placing ice cubes on your skin can help to keep it at bay.
It is okay to ask for help with this. You are not a burden.
For the process of recovery, many online therapy platforms offer reduced rates for those who are struggling financially.
Universities likely have a resource center where students can receive mental health assistance.
Life will begin to feel kinder and a lot more manageable. Reach out for help. Stay safe.